fatigue is the issue of the day

I would like to have just one day that I feel normal, I dont remember what normal is but I would like to get back there. Fatigue is heavy today. I took my shower and needed to nap because it exhausted me. I was careful to take a luke warm shower because I have learned that hot showers just cause your systems to escalate and yet the fatigure jumped out even though I followed the rules. Melissa wanted to go grocery shopping and that is my highlight of the week so I only napped for 30 minutes then got dressed to go to the store. I really like going to the store because I can walk with the shopping cart and it keeps my balance and I feel like I am doing something normal and I look normal. I know pretty sad but that is my life now.

We got home and it really did be in so I needed to sleep for 3 hours to regroup after spending all of that energy. We still need to do a Costco run but that may have to wait until tomorrow. my back pain seems to be getting better each day so I guess the burning of the nerves may be working. or perhaps I am just hopeful LOL.

I dont know if I mentioned that I lost Brodie at Christmas. He was so old and just stopped eating so we made the decision that it was time for him to go to heaven. I decided to buy a Mini Aussie this time becase with all of my balance issues Tye can easily pull me off my feet at 65lbs, dont get me wrong I wouldnt trade him for anything in the world because he is so loyal and protective of me. I never worry about anyone getting near me or breaking into the house. So Tye is going to have to give up the title of Baby Boy since at 6 years old he no longer fits that title. I am going to train the Mini that I named Izzy to be more of a service dog for me. He is still at the breeder because he is just 5 weeks old but will be home in 3 weeks and I cant wait. I think the most important thing that he will learn is to get Melissa and get my phone in emergencies. If I fall or have a vertigo attack I am pretty confused and disoriented and if he can learn to fetch Melissa or my phone that can be life saving for me. So welcome Izzy to my loving home.